What is wrong with me?

first off i was you 7 years ago when i was 15 i had all the same emotions idk how old you are but if your somewhere in between that trust me it will pass.cutting just turns into an addiction a habit a urge to make the pain go away but does it really? i was a cutter for 3 years real bad i still have the scars icant even wear shorts its that bad.you are somebody.no matter what people may say or think about you.its just words.and only words.i have the same problems you have til this day but i take control and do something about it then to rather take it out on myself.nothing is your fault.other people dont understand how you feel. you have to learn how to make it on your own and make your life worth living,find what makes you happy.i didnt really have anyone to talk to either or have anyone to have my back.my dad use to abuse me and hit me no one helped and i have 3 brothers and my mom didnt either but she was a victim herself and was scared.i was anorexic,then bulimic then i started to drink do drugs get high have sex to feel wanted,after all this i still felt the sameso i found hope within myself in this real world you have to go through some bullshit to be happy.i did it all on my own,no friends no family and my sorrow,i did everything possible to get the fvck away from my dad i did everything for my mom she was sick i took care of her did all the cooking for her she worked i worked my dad would just take her money from her and i would help with bills and that never went to bills all he did was drink it awayi didnt know she was dying til after she died.i lost her in an car accident i was in it too.it is real fvcking hard to lose someone you love but it hurts real bad to watch them go like that.all cos of a wreckless driver.i still have problems but i do something about them now and dont dwell in the problem YOU are the only person who can make that change, dont ever give up or ever give in to the hate.you are somebody you just have to find out who you are. hope i helped sorry so long and dont make sense. like your life to the fullest. laters